October 30th 2015

         Today I had an anxiety attack that I couldn't control.  And it happened over almost nothing.  I was spending some time with my wife on her lunch break and we were discussing our plans for the weekend and it just came on like a ton of bricks.  The real problem was that it made me treat my wife horribly because I was trying to get my emotions and anxiety under control and failing miserably.  I apologized to her for the way I was but I had already done the damage in my eyes.  I know she understands when I go through these moods, but that doesn't excuse my actions.  And I can't help but wonder if anyone else has the same feeling after a bad battle with depression?  If anyone reads this and has the same problem, could you let me know how deal with it?  I just feel lost in my own head right now.